So faithful

I just received another message from that Saturn conjoint my Venus who is so fond of bondage. I do not know him and opted for a light acquaintance, since that perversion is not for me, and I was not searching for dates, actually... Let alone a mild physical torture with not even the promise of sexual fulfillment... It was a while that we did not write to each other, and it was ok. And then, just when the Moon is conjoint Lilith in transit, almost exactly conjunct my Saturn, this lovely message was sent. It is a video about the torment of the Wheel, explicitly linked to Saint Catherine, and with some gruesome details. No comments were given. Like "here you go, by the way". I laughed so hard. Rationally, he should not be aware that that story represents a very strong occult trigger, for me. And he will not know about it, from my side at least. So, it is a mere "synchronicity", unless some missing information is gathered, some real facts that could prove that he knew. But, honestly, what would it change? Therefore, for me, it is like the umpteenth time that this piscean story is coming back, brought forward by strangers. There is also a kind of epic song that was sent to me from two different people, one of which this one. At least they are faithful, to me. They never leave me, they just change faces. They really know what true commitment is. They are bold, courageous, explicit. Although I do not see the point in going along the same old-world path again. And do not fully understand why they bother, really. There are new stories, or different ones to tell. It's like that more meaningful story about the king and the corpse, inhabited by a chattering demon. Or that - at least sexually fulfilling - Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett's story, in "Good Omens", where the dark and the light finally work together in spite of duality to save the world. Eh! Well well... I once had a dream in which I was aware of the fact that I had been an exorcist in the previous life. In the life I was living in the dream, I met all the demons I had sent back to hell in the previous life. They were people, like me. And they did the usual, annoyingly, they would torment me and threaten me. And in the dream I told them something like: "hey there, glad you made it in human form, this time". It's time we move on from this stale conflict. And it is not like I am not worried, or scared, or doubtful. I know only that the outcome cannot be predicted, only lived.